We have this idea in our minds that we have to have it all together. Okay, maybe you dont but it is a struggle of mine. For the last six to seven years I have been placed in situations that make me feel like I have to have all the answers. It's as if I cannot have a bad day or cannot have a moment where I am frustrated. Somewhere along the line I was taught to give the appearance that everything is just fine. And there are a few people in life that I can just be real in front of but not many. At Lincoln I'm missing that someone I would call my best friend. Sure I know tons of people and have several friends. But no best friend. No one to argue sports with me. No one to tell me I'm being an idiot. No one that makes fun of me just to pass the time. No one to tell me that my idea is the worst thing they've ever heard. Or get behind me and help it come true. I need someone who will wrestle around and try to hurt me while I figure out new ways to escape their strength. I'm just looking for someone to know me beyond the fact that I need three napkins at dinner and I can't have my food touch and I eat one food at a time.
I may give the appearance that nothing is wrong because thats how I was taught to roll. I need someone who will argue with me. Let me be a punk for a while so I can just be me. Let me tell you how stupid your sports team is and let me act like I can take you in a fight....I don't have it all together.
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Your post kind of seemed humorous yet I feel ya man give me a call every now and then
well I think our friendship takes away the sports arguments part. Its not my fault you have horrible taste and dont know what is best for you. :)
i like this post though...and know exactly what you mean.
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please and thank you.
sorry, i was writing this one in a hurry. forgot a word. fixed.
I've been experiencing the same sort of thing. Due to some housing issues I'm no longer with my friend Andy who was like my best friend here on campus. I never realized how great that friendship was until this year...it's lonely at the top.
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